Today is the day! I finally released my project Letters to God which I’ve been working on all summer! Letters to God is a book compilation of poems and self-photography that illustrate my personal journey and growth. I was super excited to release it, but I was also very afraid. It’s a pretty exhilarating feeling releasing a project on my own and knowing that there are now going to be other people who have copies of my work and will house my poems in their homes! That’s kind of really crazy actually, but it’s a really great feeling.
I want to talk about the title Letters to God. It really was inspired by the countless amount of writings I have filled in my notebook overtime that sort of help me figure out my purpose and my place here in life. It strives to be relatable no matter what your faith is because it’s about the moments that we all deal with in regards to love, self-love, pain, and joy. This is really going to be my first time showcasing my poetry to others on a mass level and it’s a really big deal. I remember the first time I performed my poetry in front of people, I was so afraid! I cried so many times beforehand because I was afraid of what people were going to think and if I was going to mess up.
I’m a pretty private person, so I’m very vulnerable at this point, but I think it’s a good thing. I know I have significant things to say. I know how it feels when someone else is being brave enough to tell their story no matter how ugly it may be and how much it inspires me to tell my own story. That’s really all I want to do in life is to live fully and to tell the world about it all. Everyone has a story to tell. We all have our own battles and things in ourselves we are fighting to overcome. Letters to God is about those moments where we cry and we feel ridiculous and when we are happy and feel completely in love with ourselves. No one leads a perfect life. I’m an idealist and it sort of bothers me when things aren’t perfect, which is why I just have to push myself to do things anyway.
I have to admit, many of the things I want to do in life scare the hell out of me. Seriously, my anxiety gets really crazy about things but I keep pushing myself forward because I know that there is more for me than to sit with this fear I have. I can’t let my fear or the fears of people around me who tell me not to do things stop me from what is made for me.
I hope that with this new project, it inspires people to not only be honest in who they are and the story they have to tell, but to actively work on loving every bit of that story because it is very much who you are as a human being. We are all spirits with many different lives and it’s important to share that and in the end we’ll see how similar we really are.
I pray everyday now. My faith in God, in love, and in myself has never been stronger. I get afraid sometimes. I want to run away too, but I always keep moving. I know that there is something greater in the world for me. I’m doing my best to try to achieve it.
Letters to God is available online through my self-publisher CreateSpace and Amazon.