Woah! Time flies. It’s hard to believe I’m a college senior already. I honestly remember being a freshmen like it was yesterday. Although I am very excited about turning 21, I haven’t really thought about what it means to be a senior. I can honestly say, no. I have no idea what I want to do with my life yet. I remember being that person always asking seniors, Hey, do you have a plan? Thinking inside my head, I’m going to have a plan. I’m going to have a job before I graduate. But here I am almost a year out and I have not a lick of a plan in sight.
I’m starting to think that maybe landing a regular desk job isn’t something I really want to do. I’m more of the big picture type of girl, so I think more on terms of who do I want to be? I’ve always been a go-getter striving for more than just the usual. I know that I want to be someone who is sure of herself and has experienced things everyone doesn’t get to.
I want to be in love with myself.
I know a lot of people fall into a depression after they graduate because they can’t find a job and adulting is a lot harder than people realize. I’m actually really afraid of falling into that because I don’t want to be waiting for a job to define me or my success or spend time questioning if the last four years in college was worth it. I want to do something with the things I’ve learned that extend far beyond how to write essays and put together power points. I’ve learned how to push myself, how to take risks and be brave doing it, how to be confident, and to do the things that I want to do no matter if it’s hard or if it’s extra work. These are the things that I’ve learned that will help me get to where I want to be in life.
These tools are not dependent on the job that I am working or the environment that I am in, they are solely dependent on me.
As I prepare for my senior year in college, I promise to use this year as practice to push myself even further while I still have something of a safety net before I enter the real world. My latest project Letters to God (being released August 28th!) is very important to me because it symbolizes all of these things I’ve learned so far. I am publishing it on my own and I am doing all the writing and the designing and photography. I am literally doing everything on my own! I am confident in it because it’s what I love. It is extra work, but I’m making time for it. I am pushing myself to learn new things and taking risks and doing what I’ve always wanted to do and not waiting for someone to tell me it’s okay. It may not be perfect, but for where I am right now and the skills that I’ve put together to do it, it is perfect you know.
I think where we are now and what we have to give at this time is enough.
In five years we may know so much more and do things differently, but that’s a beautiful part of the process. I know that I am enough where I am and I am very happy about that.
My plan for this year is just to keep growing.
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